The date has set....

17 January 2007 is the start of my transformation.... going to look super super ugly for at least 2weeks (I won't be able to eat much only liqure diet) and 3rd week prehaps the swell will go down much more and I can go out of the house....

3 parts of my jaw will be operate on:
1. lower jaw bone will be broken to shift it in... and because of my STUPID dentist that shifted too much of my lower jaw out... which I'm super pissed!!!
2. I have to shift out my upper jaw to compensate...
3. plus my acute chin bone... looking at the x-ray its almost like 45degree outward... she has to remove one more teeth to shift it back in... she is still thinking to opt out this surgery if possible... *pray hard* hope she opt this 3rd surgery out... lesser pain to go through.

Total time spend: at least 5hours in the operation table... 4 days in ward... 1 month of MC... 3 months to heal!!!

At the back of my mind... I start to regret... why in the first place did I say YES!!!! Reason: I always hated my chin...its too sharp and always people laugh at it like a witch chin.... so after this operation from an almond face.. I will get a slightly rounded face.... but I have to give and take... the doc say my nose will be slighly stretch!! what does stretch means...... hope it will look positive.

I will post up my photo before my opeartion... and after recovery....wish me luck!~~


Today.. I woke up gasping for air... I dream of T... althought I can't remember what is it.. but I know is something unpleasant... my heart was heavy, in fact the whole day I was trying to lighten up my mood by going shopping and buying gifts for friends. Got Gk a wrist band which one day I went shopping with her and she wanted to get one but was out of stock, got gayle a pen that I got a landyard to tie it up so that she can bring out for shoot and wont lost it, got a namecard holder for gift exchange, got nails colors for unice that comes with those nail buffer which I remember she wanted to get also, and a lipbum for xin. For me, I got myself a 2000 rosechan which I have hard time arranging the person to send it to me!!!!! damn it! I'm suppose to recieve it as a christmas present lor! Despite all these, I'm trying my best............

Get to know this person online and have been chatting lately with him... he has a dying cousin and she is only 12 years old.... very sad to hear that (be it true or not)... she told him that she still have a lot of things that she wanted to do... I guess no one really know when is going to be their last day alive... but I guess many of us still thinks that life is still long ahead of us, many things can wait... prehaps today is going to you last day, will you regret that there is still many things you yet to say, do or done? Wanted to call A to wish him a happy 30th birthday... but I have forgotten his number... happy birthday... and may you be happy...